Do you really want that?!

Are we always 100% of what we want?

I remember so many things I've wanted in the past, BUT right now, it seems like I didn't really want them because I didn't take that further step to push for it..I don't have some of what I've wanted - at that time..

So does that mean that I yearned just for the heck of it? How do we know that what we want is what we ACTUALLY want...If we really want it, we would do anything to get it...But what if we have no control of obtaining..

Whatever we want changes with time, the situation, and how far up our minds have grown..I don't think we could ever want the same thing for the rest of our lives..If we get one thing we will want another thing, and then want want want more more more.. & never stops..

and sometimes we don't know what we want..when we start questioning it then...YOU DON'T REALLY WANT IT!

FREE to..

FREEDIVING is a more of mind game rather than a sport..I can never imajine diving down to 20 meters without an air tank..But who knows?

The person in the pic is freediving .A peaceful, heavenly feeling..down in clear waters...Just like yoga, Freediving releases stress and nourishes your senses once again..The thing is with YOGA, your mind can EASILY WANDER to I don't know where and what bad memories, but when you're down in the water...will IT REALLY!? I don't think so..especially freediving..you'll be too busy trying to breathe! (Since the Dive on single breath of air)

The World Champion free diver (Martin Stepanek) went down to 108 meters DAYYMN!!

Maybe one day, I will be able to dive freely without a tank...It's a challenge...Probably when I'm really sick of everything and desperate to do something out of the ordinary, I will be bold enough to do it..

Study

One day, my future hOuse will have a study like this..It's everything I've ever imajined.

Oh-They're Ka-yuute!

You know what makes me feel so uncomfortable sometimes!?!? When people show me pictures of their children...or like when I ask ..'so how many kids do you have?' making some kind of conversation...they start showing me pictures..in my heart, I'm like OH-SHIT...I really don't wanna see them.

I have to pretend to say 'cute,,they're sweeet,,she looks like you,,,ahh who does she look like... but my expressions sound fake when I'm fakin it..especially so when the kid is not that cute, I trrrrry so hard to hide it with a 'sweeet'....or 'he looks like a naughty one'..

I start making up crazy sentences to hide what I actually think..

P.S. Im no fan of kidso's anyway!

OUT OF CONTEXT: the investment counselor at work overuses investment lingos to describe anything! Just now he used 'straight out of the horse's mouth'...He says other shit too all the time..and guess what happened right now, he passed my desk, stopped and gave me this look 'as in he wanted to tell me something'...Like he knew I was writing something about him!! HA HA FREAKY!