TO YOU

What amazes me is how much GARBAGE I have to put up with from people. Hypocrisy and bullshit is what they’re good for. I’m talking about a huge percentage of morons within the community I live in.

Why pretend you’r all religious when you’re intentions are the nastiest? Did God grant us our religion because he knew what kind of people we would turn out to be if we didn’t follow principles..Even the basic ones YOU CAN’T follow..because you’re so confused.

Why f’n judge people when you’re f’n hiding things behind your husbands back?

Why f’n bullshit lies to fuck a person up, especially when they take the person who has the cleanest intentions as the bait?

Do you actually think people respect you more when you say ‘X SAID THIS ABOUT U, Z SAID THIS AND THAT?’ I pity you because you belittle yourself by doing that.

Whatever happened to confidence? Do you have to dangle out your boobies and tooshies to attract men OR women? Oh ya, thanks for reminding me that bringin out the hoochie mama in you is the new Chanel.

Where are all the decent people? No seriously..where are they? I’m learning everyday that getting a bang is what’s so important nowadays.

Are liars the new saints? Why do I f’n have to meet liars who can’t be honest? Why do I believe them? Why do I sill accommodate assholes you remember me when they have noone in their lives and then the cycle of ‘forget and remember’ repeats itself.

Why do I f’n have to give people a chance because I believe there’s a little place in their heart where I can see some goodness and I justify their actions with issues their going through.

Why is it when someone tells me something a person said about me, I let it go and I’m still normal with them? These things are too pathetic to waste my time with. & to you, you bitch, why are u telling me? You think it makes me wanna give you a hug?

Why don’t people have anything to do with their time, like TRY TO THINK FOR EXAMPLE rather than think about what others have and how to be better than them.

Whatever happened to educating yourselves? Gaining some real general knowledge? At least when I mention global warming, YOU WOULD KNOW WHAT I MEAN..especially when you consider yourself smart.. NO, NOT SMART ABOUT COUNTING HOW MANY designer bags you own.

Well, ladies and gents, TOO BAD, you will NEVER reach anywhere. OR WAIT. The way the world is, you guys are the ones that will rock. Because principles, honesty, and integrity are sooooo PASSE. Old skool.
And let me tell myself something: From now on I am gonna start thinking the worst about YOUR intentions because unfortunately it always turns out to be the truth rather than look positively at people who don’t deserve it because they’re still stuck in a bubble of immaturity.

Nothing shocks me anymore unless you electrocute me. My blank face is all you will get NOW. I won’t even nod, because the next thing I hear is you bullshitting to people that I was trying to hit on your man..Oh will there be a next time? Even if you pay me and I’m bored to death, I won’t waste my time with people like yourselves.

But when I get angry, just like the way YOU MADE ME now, oh How I would wish to pull the trigger at people who haven’t grown up and are still big pimpin it like a fucking 14 year old who can’t figure out the truth from the lies because of how much they lie. One tip though: When you lie, be consistent, cuz my brain is not the size of a pea.

p.s. pull the trigger to scare you with the noise, not screw you with the bullet;P

Jesus, why am I still being nice.

How Bizarre

You know when people go on about how there’s a slight chance things could happen. Such as : ‘there’s a 10% chance that this could happen to you, so don’t worry about it.’. I don’t buy that shit and I don’t think whatever amount of percentage to release anxiety will ever release it. SHIT HAPPENS.

It always happens to me. I can’t lie because I always get caught.
I usually bump into people getting down with stuff that they wouldn’t want anybody to know about.
I sometimes read emails (V. SHOCKING INFO) by mistake. (It's usually in my face screaming 'READ ME' so I HAD NO CHOICE)
I don’t regularly see some people, but when I do, I see them at the places that are the most bizarre. AT THE TRAFFIC LITE, I SAW THIS GUY (THAT MY COLLEGUE WAS TRYING TO HOOK ME UP WITH) GETTING IT ON WITH HIS WHITE CHICK! Hook up alrite!
What’s more odd than one of my friends bumping into a blogger (both don’t live in the country that they were at) but I do – she told me about it (obviously she doesn’t know he’s a blogger) but when I put the pieces in place, it was he…

Blank expressions. All the time now. To whatever the case may be.. I feel I’m livin in a sitcom, hoping that things could turn my way (the way I want it to B) ONE DAY rather than all the drama I have to live and later laugh about it.

Small percentages can make big differences. It only takes a little pull.

What's your puzzle

Interesting how..…our lives are pieced together. One big puzzle with pieces of different size, color, picture, ect... When we meet different people or things happen to us, it helps us build a better picture of what the puzzle should look like.. in a way it helps us make connections between the past and the future...To tell you the truth, so much has happened to me, and I still can’t put the pieces together.

I have met so many people through work, interviews, college, or random acquaintances. I don’t believe meeting a person ONLY ONCE is an end to the story; something in the future will definitely come up relevant to that person. Some don’t necessarily play a big role in the future, but at least we learnt something from them or made a new persona discovery that will help us better analyze the ones we meet in the future..

People with certain qualities are attracted to one person. For example, the players are attracted to person A or like complicated people are attracted to person B or the guys on rebound are attracted to H or or or..the list is endless..

When I look back, I can see the pattern.. How I’ve attracted a bunch of different qualities (outside my friends circle)…like

1.Wild gurls who pretend to be all goody when they’re around me. Deep down I personally never figured why they hung around me so much when I used to get on their nerves
2. Nerdy guys who are funny & preppy.
3. Guys who are hard-working.
4. Guys who are taken but feel comfortable around me
5. Nerdy gurls who have issues with me….
6. Gay people

Does that tell you something about me? *Laughin out Loud* I JUST THINK IT’S FUNNY! The good thing is that I can get along with anybody because…………. I AM JUST SO CURIOUS!

Down

I hate everything that’s happening. The older I get, the more disgraceful the world is turning into. Everything is related to the price of oil, currencies, interest rates, anything financial. It really sucks and it’s the truth…Nonone will make a decision to save f’in lives without having to control whatever financial measures….
People are racists, I mean it was so obvious the London ‘so-called’ attack was a boobytrap to lower oil prices…It’s just to waste our times, screw our race..and now our times at the airport…

It will always be like this….Resources are scarce, the world is getting warmer, ice is melting., destructing forests, nature disasters, racisism…Why am I worrying about all this?

I’m not gonna waste my time with this, because I don’t think anybody in the world listens to each other…..I just thought I’d share how I feel because for some reason I feel nonchalant and it’s because, in addition to all this, I’m thinking about something else that I have no control of. Life is testing my patience. .Why did the tell me?..& Why can’t I stop thinking about it?

Merry Marry

When guys play it cool and act all friendly, they’re usually the ones that are taken. Boo-hoo. I know a few guys that are sweethearts..but…… AND the ones that are single are the biggest morons I can’t even STAND… AM I LUCKY OR WHAT!?!??!

Another thing…...when gurls are getting engaged…(you know before they announce it, there’s the whole ‘talking period’ only their fams know about it.).they start asking about my brothers sometimes even referring them to ‘their husbands’…..(not that I even give a rat’s ass) only to find out one month later, they’re engaged! They start asking things like..oh wat’s he doing, where does he work, where does he hang blah blah blah

That’s the screwy way they roll here… You can’t ask anybody you know about their brothers because they think you wanna marry them and friendly guys who you really like and are fun to hang out with are the ones that are taken.

Marriage seems like a relief point to so many things…especially when gurls wanna get away with things!

I AM ROLLING MY EYES RIGHT NOW!

Inspired by Papillona’s ‘Regrets’ Post

I regret I haven’t made a few moves or responded to them.

It seems like it’s for the best because the world is getting smaller, and at the rate it’s going, I’m getting to know a lot of people and a lot OFF people, so I better keep my cover. And it’s because juicy gossip lands on my lap! Trust me, I don’t ask for it, but I think it’s really funny the way I have this magnet to gossip OR rendez-vous’s that definitely will come in handy for my future knowledge. EVIL LAUGH
So particular regrets make me wanna go back in TIME. I WANNA JUMP BACK, twirl, & not hold back from doing things that if I've done, wouldve added some spice into past memories If I knew the future back then, which is what the present is for me rite now, that it would turn out this way (I’m NOT complaining, I love it right now), I would have done them.

Because 4 words to describe being back home: Same old Same Old.

But anyway, let me list some of my regrets: (They’re not the same people)

When he asked me if I wanted coffee, I wish I said YES, I’ll have a LATTE.
When he gave me his number on his email, I wish I called rather than right back oo etfalsaft 3aleih.
I wish I talked to him more in our classes.
I wish I went out with peekaboo more, doin our dances!
I WISH I gave up the moment I heard her voice.
If I went up to him and said hello THE TWO TIMES I SAW HIM, I know things would’ve been different now!

These are just little things, but it would’ve been fun if I weren’t so uptight during those moments. SOOO even though I live by ‘TAKE THE CHANCE, DON’T GIVE A SHIT, and LIVE THE MOMENT’. Sometimes I hold back...I don’t know why…But I’m sure, it’s for the best!!

** Writing this post sure is lagging some work I have to finish! No regrets.