Hello there!

Early this morning I laid in bed, first of all it was too comfy and second of all..WHAT THE HELL WAS I DOING WITH MY LIFE?!

I realized that I needed to bring the old me back, the carefree positive person…Where was she? Who took her away? Why Have I changed into this unhappy, uptite, moody person? If I continue this way, I’m gonna lose it, and my loved ones are gonna get sick of me and subscribe prozak or something..I needed to get myself back on track! TOOT TOOT

It was me listening to the wrong voice… two voices control us…remember in the cartoons where there was an angel and devil on Sylvesters shoulders whenever he started to think?!!? But he had all the rite to kill tweety..

I guess for the past couple of months, I needed to give that angel a chance..and ignore the devil..It wasn’t normal how I preferred to ditch everybody and choose to stay alone rather than socialize..But I guess at some point in your life, you gotta give yourself a break…Even extroverts need a break!!! A good push was diving down under..at that time my mind drifted to another place, away from the rest of the world… the only thing that mattered was how much I enjoyed being away from the busy city to explore another part of the world that moves freely and being one of them….This was a good push to helping me bring the old me back… Some time on my own with strangers and a friend who we understand one another without words.

I needed to let go of the past..the bad memories… SHIT HAPPENS! LET GO MISSY! So now I think before I talk, am more focused on what I want, who I need to spend time with and how to give myself more credit and spend my time doing efficient things & most important to start enjoying myself..! The positive voice must of all musts speak louder than the negative one.. or you know what?..It should SCREAM! HELL YA!

So this morning, I pushed the devil out of my way, woke up and the old me made its way out of the closet. With sexy jeans and killer heels…

I met up with an old friend, it was good to catch up and to realize for a person of her nature to trust me, was an honor of its own…A great person, & a great catch up…This weekend was good…

Hello World!!! What's on for tomorrow!?!?

Simple Life

This morning, I played some Keith Sweat from back in 96..His ‘twisted’ album brought back a lot of memories…especially my friends and all the fun we had…

What I didn’t know was that in the future, I wouldn't know anything about them!

I miss them, our laughs, outings, ect....but I guess we have to grow up and learn that friends come and go and no matter what stage we pass through in life, we will always meet someone better..& there will always be someone to share our experiences with..

I wonder what they are doing right now..I could spend forever just wondering..but you know what? I have better things to do with my time..hehe The clock’s tickin’ and I don’t wanna b runnin after it.

Sometimes I wish things would be just as simple as the way they used to be….with only a few places to go to, a few tv and radio channels and a city that wasn’t so overpopulated… Back in those days, people were more real….

When I look at school kids, they act like grown ups and not they’re age…We weren’t like that…We lived each age the way it was supposed to be......
We were more innocent…

Goal

The other day at work, a Managing Director visited us from another country. At her late 30s, she was already a MD, and she’s already gaining some political influence with her Country’s government as well..

Stylish, Friendly, Confident

10 – 13 years down the line, I thought that’s where I see myself.. So currently, I’m working to reach that level but taking things and learning the basics one step at a time…I realized at that level, there is so much respect nobody in the company would dare judge you wrong because if they compare themselves to you, they’ll realize that they haven’t done much…in all those years..

A young business woman in control.

A set mind + Will = Everything is possible

It’s easy:

Think where you see yourself in the future, work hard & Don’t let anything get in the way.

Something to tell

When I see people smile and laugh away, it makes me feel much much better and it calms my anxieties down..So being around people who take it easy, really makes a difference! Yall Easy Peasy's, come rite out!

For the past week, I realized that I confesssed things to my 'friend' who I trusted for years...But she betrayed that trust by blabbing whatever I felt out about anybody or anything..Ironically enough, I don' feel hurt..I learnt a lesson..the hard way..As usual..Anyway, so I don't know what damage she has done..and one of them is what others who don't know think about me..because of all the shit she said to them..

But I'm sure they have an impression..Life is too short for me to go and confront her and make a big issue about things. Something tells me that it's gonna fire her rite back in the ass..It's just not her..confrontation with senselessness is really a waste of anybody's time.

The only way I can change people's perspectives, is to socialize with them so they can figure out the real me..But is it really necessary to socialize with people who HAVE ZERO SIMILAR INTERESTs?!!?

For a person who is so selfish, materialistic and inconsiderate and who doesn't understand the concept of 'forgive and forget'..In the short-term..It's all good..But in the longer term, life could get bitchy..

There's a whole bunch of people on my watchlist..who I know in one or another are gonna pay the price..But when..I don't know..

I'm just the spectator..Sittin back with my popcorn, legs right up on the seat infront..and just watching..

Anyway, Back to those smiles.. Ironically, blabbing to happy strangers, who've been there-done that, alleviate some of my most pathetic worries because listening to their experiences opens new perspectives and makes me realize that half the people I met here, having nothing to tell!

And even when you have something to tell, They are too shallow to listen

Change

During the last couple of days, I had to let off a lot of heat built up inside me. I could literally feel the flames. Although I try to be as positive because I believe you realize satisfaction with a positive mind. Sometimes our surroundings extract the positive energy and creates a negative cloud. The negative cloud, from what I see, is insecurity.. What does it take to be confident and sensible?

Anyway, that’s the problem..Ima just gonna move on, watch them blow themselves out (when you fake it, you will reach the point of falling apart – but Lord knows when) & continue watching..I’m not here to change the world or make people feel better about themselves because it doesn’t take a rocket scientist to work a clean heart.

I don’t understand the pleasure of watching other people suffer…Anyways, as for me:

I will change:

My surroundings: Cut off a few people and move on..I’d rather be alone than be around them..Something good will always come around….and good people are definitely out there. What's the point of being around people who wait to watch the bad.

Let things go more easily. YOURSELF is the number one.

I will not change:

My honesty: What you see is what you get: I’ve always been like that.

Sarcasm: That’s me..When I’m angry, it’s X 100000000.

Cheerfulness: I don't care if you're in a bad mood and your under stress but don't let it out on me dude. Chill.